Self esteem = -1
Hey to everyone that have been reading this blog most of the time I bother to write them. As you're probably aware by now, I am quite lazy to write everything down and it takes about 3-4 months, or lately, even a fucking year to blog something. I have to say that ALOT happened in the year I got here. Now, here's my story. It might include or NOT include some things that you know ... I left out some things coz I think it's "inappropriate" to write it down here where everyone, including my parents and so on can read it ;).
Ok so here it goes. ( Btw this has already been typed so yeah, you might find "weird" english at some places. You also gotta note that I barely use english here in everyday use, so it's kinda fading away but heh, I think I can still get my points across and make you understand what I mean.
Ok. After getting here. I volunteered at a NGO teaching english for
financially deprived kids.The bus ride there takes an hour, on a FULLY
packed bus ... After like a month and half, the thing fucks up coz a
chick woos the guy who finances the program. So it fucks up and I quit
there.
After like 2 months, I prepare for my english degree which I pass ....
In about Dec-Jan, I start working on a translation project
(French-English-Myanmar) which was done in the last week of April.
1st week of May, I go and apply for a job at an airline but they told
me that I was too young but they were interested in me coz I traveled
alot. About a week later, I had to have a minor operation coz an
infection got outta control.
3rd week of May, I go apply for another job at a LOCAL airline, and I
am waiting to see if I passed the written exam. The results will be
out on June the 11th. Since the day of the written exam, I've been
feeling crappy and shit and got extremely agressive.
There's also a chance that we might move to NYC or Geneva OR Aust in
like the next year ... So I oono, I'll have to wait and see where life
leads me to this time. I wanna do more studies in France or in Aust
... Oh well ...
And since today's the 11th of June, I went to see my results and as usual with me fucking up things, I am not in the short-listed candidates. Even though I COULD say I had some advantages in languages then the "normal" candidates. Well ... maybe I didn't get in coz I look like shit in photos too. ( People who have seen my pics know that I look like shit in 99% of the pics I take.)
So now, I am completely lost and I have no fucking idea what to do and what to plan for a whole freaking year. The translation project will begin again in Aug-Sept ish , so I kinda got something to look forward to. I could say it's the only thing I am looking forward to. Otherwise then that, I got a whole year to waste, which I don't wanna. So if you know like any job positions which might suit me, don't hesitate to mail me ( Since I am currently in Ygn and I can't move anywhere, I can only take up local jobs) I will email you my CV and stuff if you need to know more about me.
Now, to move onto other things. I miss every single one of you. Most of my mates know that my friends are my REAL family, so for me it's like living without my family. Maybe my wanting to move to Aust is due to the fact that most of my best mates are there now .... I oono ... one day, I MIGHT actually get my paws on a GOOD paying job and save up enough to visit you guys ( Yes, I am talking about you Bal and MZ. Fuck, I do miss you guys :'[ ). I wanna see you too Lyn, my so called "good" twin ;) . If you wanna see me again in Brunei, maybe you're hoping too much, coz I have to admit that 3 years in that place was enough for a lifetime. I mean I could remember every detail in Gadong ... From where Mc D was to Ayamku and The Mall. So Brunei, no thanks :).
Last but not least, I have to thank Weier. You asked me " Bryan, don't you blog anymore ?" So here it is for you, if you ever read it and no, I haven't forgotten you either :) it's just the fact that we got so little to talk about to each other ... Or maybe it's just the fact that we don't see each other that often anymore.
Oh yeah, you guys are used to see quotes from me, and I had a couple of them that were great, but since I don't got net at home and that my comp died, I didn't note them down. So I only got one for you guys atm. Here it is:
"You know, if you have discovered what it means to truely love, you won't care about fucking that hot piece of cunt that walks you by."
I think the same would apply for you girls out there ... but with a different wording of course.
Bah, this is all for now. I think ... I had more things to say, but they some how slipped outta my mind when I was typing. Maybe it had something to do how I really wanted that job and shit ... but oh fuck that shit, who wants me raving like in my old blogs ... haha ... Shit, it's sometimes funny to read your OLD blogs and see how you grow up, if you blog too, read up your old blogs and think, then you'll know what I mean.
If you wanna leave comments, do so, but I think e-mailing your comments to me would be a better way to make sure that I do read them. As for my next blog, I don't know when it'll come. Just be patient if you wanna read it.
Peace
Bryan.
Ok so here it goes. ( Btw this has already been typed so yeah, you might find "weird" english at some places. You also gotta note that I barely use english here in everyday use, so it's kinda fading away but heh, I think I can still get my points across and make you understand what I mean.
Ok. After getting here. I volunteered at a NGO teaching english for
financially deprived kids.The bus ride there takes an hour, on a FULLY
packed bus ... After like a month and half, the thing fucks up coz a
chick woos the guy who finances the program. So it fucks up and I quit
there.
After like 2 months, I prepare for my english degree which I pass ....
In about Dec-Jan, I start working on a translation project
(French-English-Myanmar) which was done in the last week of April.
1st week of May, I go and apply for a job at an airline but they told
me that I was too young but they were interested in me coz I traveled
alot. About a week later, I had to have a minor operation coz an
infection got outta control.
3rd week of May, I go apply for another job at a LOCAL airline, and I
am waiting to see if I passed the written exam. The results will be
out on June the 11th. Since the day of the written exam, I've been
feeling crappy and shit and got extremely agressive.
There's also a chance that we might move to NYC or Geneva OR Aust in
like the next year ... So I oono, I'll have to wait and see where life
leads me to this time. I wanna do more studies in France or in Aust
... Oh well ...
And since today's the 11th of June, I went to see my results and as usual with me fucking up things, I am not in the short-listed candidates. Even though I COULD say I had some advantages in languages then the "normal" candidates. Well ... maybe I didn't get in coz I look like shit in photos too. ( People who have seen my pics know that I look like shit in 99% of the pics I take.)
So now, I am completely lost and I have no fucking idea what to do and what to plan for a whole freaking year. The translation project will begin again in Aug-Sept ish , so I kinda got something to look forward to. I could say it's the only thing I am looking forward to. Otherwise then that, I got a whole year to waste, which I don't wanna. So if you know like any job positions which might suit me, don't hesitate to mail me ( Since I am currently in Ygn and I can't move anywhere, I can only take up local jobs) I will email you my CV and stuff if you need to know more about me.
Now, to move onto other things. I miss every single one of you. Most of my mates know that my friends are my REAL family, so for me it's like living without my family. Maybe my wanting to move to Aust is due to the fact that most of my best mates are there now .... I oono ... one day, I MIGHT actually get my paws on a GOOD paying job and save up enough to visit you guys ( Yes, I am talking about you Bal and MZ. Fuck, I do miss you guys :'[ ). I wanna see you too Lyn, my so called "good" twin ;) . If you wanna see me again in Brunei, maybe you're hoping too much, coz I have to admit that 3 years in that place was enough for a lifetime. I mean I could remember every detail in Gadong ... From where Mc D was to Ayamku and The Mall. So Brunei, no thanks :).
Last but not least, I have to thank Weier. You asked me " Bryan, don't you blog anymore ?" So here it is for you, if you ever read it and no, I haven't forgotten you either :) it's just the fact that we got so little to talk about to each other ... Or maybe it's just the fact that we don't see each other that often anymore.
Oh yeah, you guys are used to see quotes from me, and I had a couple of them that were great, but since I don't got net at home and that my comp died, I didn't note them down. So I only got one for you guys atm. Here it is:
"You know, if you have discovered what it means to truely love, you won't care about fucking that hot piece of cunt that walks you by."
I think the same would apply for you girls out there ... but with a different wording of course.
Bah, this is all for now. I think ... I had more things to say, but they some how slipped outta my mind when I was typing. Maybe it had something to do how I really wanted that job and shit ... but oh fuck that shit, who wants me raving like in my old blogs ... haha ... Shit, it's sometimes funny to read your OLD blogs and see how you grow up, if you blog too, read up your old blogs and think, then you'll know what I mean.
If you wanna leave comments, do so, but I think e-mailing your comments to me would be a better way to make sure that I do read them. As for my next blog, I don't know when it'll come. Just be patient if you wanna read it.
Peace
Bryan.
posted by DarkFallenSaint at 12:55 PM
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