Thursday, March 23, 2006

Goodbye Brunei ...

Well ... I know you must be thinking wtf ... Coz I blogged so soon (by my standards) to the last blog. Well. I am leaving Brunei for Burma ( if you don't know wot burma is please use google) :( and we're leaving on the 27th april (apparently). We started packing up today, and goddamn, it took me 2 hours to shove a buncha books,cd's tapes and stuff into 2 boxes which are already half filled. [hint] Wish I had some help packing up all this shit coz it drives me nuts everytime I have to do it [/hint] It's alwys packing the damn house up in like 25-30 days. To be honest, I am not at all looking towards going back to Burma.The whole country could just blow up any second ... Then I talked to my dad 1 day about how I felt about the whole situation there, and he went like " Bryan, I am warning you now, don't get involved in politics when you get back there, there's nothing you can do. So just study hard, and get the fuck outta there." I mean what the hell.. It's that kinda attitude that encourages pasivity and digs the country into deeper shit.
Later that night I had contact with my mate who was there and she told me about the things that happened to my former classmates.Beleive me, thats one of the most screwed up things I've ever heard. First of all, she told me about the guy who used to fail every single subject in the monthly exams. Apparently, he's now a filthy rich drug lord or something ... Then another scumbag is an apparently succeful buisness man with his own house and car ( note that a car in burma is at least 10 times more expensive then Burnei and it's used up ). Another guy, not so bad as the 2 above is a hip hop singer ... Most of all, the people who was all good (like me) and studied hard ( No, I didn't study that much if you were wondering ) are at the bottom the guy who the whole school thought that he could be one of the best in the whole damn country (56 mil people) is only at medical college. I mean wot the bloddy fuck is wrong with this world ?! Why all the good hardworking people get the shit part in life ? When I get back there, the best chance I got is complete my degree, hope I can continue to masters, get a scholarship and get outta that bloddy place, which could take up to 5 years ... Or I could TOTALLY fuck my life up and be stuck there forever which is more likely then anything, but if THAT happens I'll just jump off a building or something. Would be easier then trying to jump off a building in Brunei anyways coz there's loads of high buildings there -muahahaha-. Don't try telling me that my parents would do anything for me coz I know they're just waiting to kick me out.
This MIGHT be the last blog coz I won't be able to afford net in Burma, and even if I could, the govt firewalls might block off the site ... but I got a way around that -grin- But yeah, its more likely to be the monies part. There are loads of other things in my head that I wanna share with you people, if there's any readers. But things that I wanna tell just remains stuck in a corner of my head and I don't know how to get them out ... -sigh- I am gonna miss the people here, although I woulden't wanna come back here for ANY REASON AT ALL, I would come back to visit my mates ( mainly Bal and if he's still stuck here by then).Heh, who knows maybe I'll hit it big there ( like by dealing some drugs or something else ) and pay you guys a visit wherever you are ! =) Oh well, life goes on I guess. If you can afford it, do come and visit me there coz I won't be able to stand the retards there and I might go simply insane (well, more then I am now.)

Peace ...

Saturday, March 04, 2006

I am alive !

Hello people. I know the last time I posted was like 3 months ago. But I am still alive, and today I am in the mood to post so,let's do it. In the past 3 months, I could say a buncha things happened. First of all, I finally settled down here, kinda like emotionally and all but then I found out that I'll have to move in less then 5 months.I mean fuck that shit. Every 4 years, it's the same bloddy thing. Move to a place, struggle to settle and shit and when I am settled in that place, I gotta pack up and move to start the whole process all over again. Drives me fucking nuts.
Well, on a good kinda side, my depression kinda went away. I am seeing life in a new light ... bla bla bla. Found out 2 days ago that I passed my second year in college (w00t ? ) I am graduating next year with a bloddy degree. Eh, who knows, my dream of having "doctor" as a prefix in my name by 25 MIGHT still come true. Well, not the doc that treates people, but a Ph.D kinda one, you know wot I mean.
On another note, I did some fun things the last 2 weeks ish (I have a VERY poor sense of time). First of all, I met Lyn, through Teo, (can't exactly remember how now.) Went to the movies to watch Pink Panther with her like 3 days later. Next day, we went to Alison's for lunch. My god, that was like fun and exhausting. I had to cook This thing they made me do .. Which took me a fucking 1.30 hours haha, Lyn was in charge of the desert, ( Mousse au chocolat ) and she didn't wanna bake the mousse .. I mean, have you EVER heard of a mousse au chocolat that wasn't baked ? ( raw eggs brrr ). But then again, Her mousse was better then my sauce haha. It looked indian ( I know I added too much mustard so shattap ).
Next day, we headed to berakas beach at like 7 AM. We just bummed at the beach for like a few hours there and then we headed to gadong. Where we ditched Clinton's ice box at West Street ;) and bummed at another shop for a "while". Oh yeah, I met my neighbour, Felicia too :). She lives like 3 houses down the lane and I never saw her around before (wtf ! ). I guess it's a brunei thing for not to know your neighbours till like 3 years later :P.
Yesterday, I slept over at Bal's and watched The Notebook. Yeah I know it's more of a chick movie but who gives a damn ? I reallly enjoyed it =). I wanna watch it again, but not alone coz the movie was just not meant to be watched alone.
Bah ... Now I am in the mood to drink and waiting for my parents to sleep so that I can get drunk off my ass. Now, all I gotta hope is that my firewall won't screw me over so that I wont have to type this all over again.

Oh yeah ! If there's anyone who read this, leave me some songs worth getting coz I am getting bored of my music.

Peace ...

PS: Random thoughts : Being in love somewhat makes you a more responsible person, coz you try and not to fuck up so that you can be there for that person.