Sick ...

For the last few days ... Since I got back from Tutong .. I've been sick ... until today ... I think I am recovering now ( Let's hope that I recover ) ... I've been doing basically nothing .... Except for the fact that I got my hands on an english version of the Al-Quran ... It's an interesting read and I hope to finish it .. My b'day's in .. 3 days .. but I ain't looking forward to it though ... I think that's all ...

Peace ...

Thoughts .... thoughts ... thoughts ...

Been 5 days since my last entry ... I haven't written anything coz .. Most of the time .. I have my parents behind my back and I hate them reading over my shoulders and when they're gone, I am just, too lazy to enter anything.I think I forgot to mention that I am EXTREMELY lazy ... ON the side bar thing ... Anyways ... I DID make it to the movies on the 20th ( after taking 2 mouthfuls of Paracetamol liquid ). I think I took a bit too much coz when I stepped outta the car I coulden't see who it was when the person was like ... 5feet infront of me haha .. ( but that didnt stop me from taking 2 grams of paracetamol in less then 30 mins afterwards ).I didn't see Fantastic 4, instead I finished watching War of the worlds. The movie was ok in general but the ending was poorly presented. The only thing that struck me during the movie is how humans strive for their survival and basically don't give a shit about others when something of cataclysmic propotions happen ) part about the car getting stolen ) But then again, there are still people out there who would carry handicapped people 70 storeys inside a building which might collapse any moment ... How on fucking earth does the human head works ? That still puzzles me everytime I think about it. Otherwise, the movie failed to leave me with any thoughts that would normall buzz in my mind for ... a few hours. I went home with Nyan and we talked about random shit ... Mostely rants about out parents .. ( I think ) .. But there were others things that we talked about .. But yeah, he might kick my ass if I said it here ... And I think he woulden't want me to say ... But at that moment I realsied, We ( teenagers ) might all seem different on the outside, but somehow on the inside, we're all kinda similar somehow ... ( I didn't draw this conclusion from Nyan alone so read on ). Then after talking and shit ... I went to watch TV and fell asleep on the couch.Nothing much interesting happened for 24 hours ... Or more ... Till yesterday evening ... I woke up to find my mom bitching at eveything ... Including me as usual ... ( I think it's a hobby of hers to just ... bitch at me ) . I just drowned myself in my music .. At full blast ... Sadly, I could hear her still bitching about me WITH my headphones on at max ... I fucking swear .. I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted to run in the kitchen, grab a knife and just knock her over, then plunge it in her neck till she shuts the fuck up ... I managed to cool down with the music ... But yeah .. If it wasn't for music, I'd be insane and be a murderer by now ... I dunno what happened for about ... 2 hours after I managed to cool down ... Until I started reading a friend's blog ... The english was like ..... WoAH ! Honestly, I didn't make much outta it ... But I only knew what it meant from linking what I know about her and some words that I could understand in the blog.But it was scary ... The words are very strong ... Then again .. something ticked in my head .. It's kinda ironic how we're surrounded by people, friends, family ... etc. but deep down, most of us are lonely in a way somehow ... and have this 'part' of us that is missing... And it needs to be filled ... I wondered maybe that's how religions are born. From people who seek this part of them to be fufilled and that religious teachinngs are there just to fill that gap and apease the human mind. I myself don't beleive in ANY religion, but I might 'beleive' one just to fufill that missing gap ... I said I might ... not that I will ... Then I bummed around and went to sleep ... Today, I went to a football match ( Myanmar vs Singapore ) . Myanmar got it's ass whopped ( as usual ) but heh ... at least I got out of the house. Umm ... Something fun did happen there. During half time , I got hungry so Nyan and me went down for some food ( I stil owe you 3 bucks nigga ) .Then When we had to go back, I noticed that I never got a ticket ( I used the VIP entrance with my 'family' ). So I decided it use it again. We went there and there were like these 2 'buff' guys there and I started opening the door, and the guy was like .. ' Who are you ? ' And I was like ' I came with A VIP ' and then pointed at the car with a white plate parked nearby... And the guy didn't ask shit no more ... I swear .. It's not like I did not came with the VIP but the security was lax man ... ( the same path was used by the crown prince later, or so I think. ) I coulda plant a fucking bomb in there for fuck's sake ! That's all for this note ... I am waiting for comments ...

Peace ...

PS: Oh yeah ... For people who are having particularly dark thoughts ... You should get these songs ...
Bobby Gaylor - Suicide Song

Good Charlotte - Hold On

PS 2 : There was an anonymous guy/chick (whatever on earth you are ... ) asking me about one of my distant cousins ... I mean ... How the fuck do people know so much shit about me ?! -.- .... That's all .. I think ...

Peace ...

The beauty of nature ...

Today, I had a picnic at the beach in tutong ( a small town which is like ... 30 mins drive away from where I live ... ) Was nice ... everything was ... ok ... and about at 6.30 PM ish .. Nearly everyone was swimming ( I didn't coz I couldn't be arsed to change and be all wet for a 30 min ride ). Since I didn't swim ... I was walking around the beach wtih my shoes off in the water and looking at the sun set ... And my fucking god ... It was damn beautiful ... I just wanted to have that 'special someone' in my arms ... and just listen to some songs ... But yea ... I don't think that'll happen anytime soon ... -.-. I once seriously though about ending my life after my 18th b'day ... But .. after seeing that sunset. I realised that I am gonna miss alota things out if I did ... if I DID end my life ... I am not only gonna miss sunsets ... But music,candy and loads of other shit ... So, I am gonna give that thought another try ... I used to worry how ... I woulden't be able to make myself happy ... And worse, if I get settled and married, How I woulden't be able to make my family happy and shit .. But ... after seeing that sunset everything changed ... I see infront of my eyes some ppl who ain't doing as well as us ( or at least I think they ain't doing well ) ... But they all seem happy and they are still trying .. To be better ... And perhaps, I might try that when it's my turn ... ( if that ever happens .) And if everything still DO fuck up ... It'll be easier for me to get a gun or some shit ... ( coz, I'll be legal by then hahah . ) And at that moment, my dad called me coz we were going back home ... So my thoughts ended there .. By the time I got to the car, I had a running nose ... And I caught a cold -.- . Other things then this boring shit ? I am going out tommorow to watch Fantastic 4.I am gonna eat paracetamol pills like candy tonight so that I'l be fine tommorow ... Umm ... Oh yeah ! Nyan's borrowing me that new HP book when he's done !YAY ! :P Yeah, this is all for now ... Thank you for reading through all this shit ...

Peace ...


PS : Don't mind the inchorence ... I am sick and I can't think straight .. The music I wanted to listen to was ... Something Corporate - Konstantine , Savage Garden - Truely Madly Deeply , DJ Sammy - We're In Heaven ( Candlelight Mix ) and DJ Sammy - Sunlight .All in that order ...

Love ? Understanding ?

Everything started out as normal today ... ( woke at ... 6 PM ish ). Heard the car humming, so I asked where we were going and I hopped on ( after showering and shit of course. ) My mom told me that we were going to one of her friend's anniversary ... When I got there, I looked at the banner, and I saw ' Happy 30TH aniversary' I was like WOAH !?!?!? 30 years ! I mean, nowadays, people rarely even stay for ... 10-15 years togeather ... while this couple ... 30 years ... Of course I've seen like 100 year old couples who've been togeather for like 80 years and shit ... but this is something like real ... Sadly, there are couples who have kids, 3-7 years later break up ... And the end result ? kids suffering and long divorces and all that shit ... I mean ... for someone of my age, I consider that normal nowadays ... And I wonder why some marriages last like .. 3 billon years ( sorry for the exaggeration .. ). Other news ? It's startng to rain ... OOOH ! I want that new Harry Potter book :P, and I gotta caddie my dad in a few hours ... ( I woulden't have done it if I ain't getting paid haha ). Hopefully, the course won't allow caddies, so that I could doze off in the car ... I think that's all for now ...

Peace ...

( PS: I think anyone can post comments now ... I am still messing around ... )

Intro ...

Ok, I've been meaning to make this blog for a very long time, but due to many reasons, I didn't. Today, I am feeling calm and content and all so I started this. I'll use this blog to share about my life ( as if that would be interesting.), my opinions about the world, and ask questions and so on ... Otherwise, I am feeling great,calm and content ( which is abnormal for me ).What else ? I am listening to Konstantine by Something Corporate and playing Runescape. I recommend you to get the song if you have the time. I am sure you're fucking bored by now so I'll stop ... I'd wanna see your comments and shit in my future notes ....

Peace ...